tired....

Saturday blues... my gosh! Can somebody tell me how to kill time... literally! This is one Saturday which, as in, I  run of things to do. I didnt expect that this day will be some kinda... stupid day! One more thing... my back is terribly aching! I have been thinking, what if I combine all the things I do in one week... and do it every Saturday??? Will it fruitful? hehehe... let's see... let me write down all the things that I do....

Usual stuff I do:
1. Surf on the net.
2. Check my email.
3. Chat with (online) friends.
4. Play angry birds and burger shop 2 (side by side)  all day.
5. Check the latest video on You Tube.
6. Hear music on the media player all day long.
7. Search for another chrome app(s) to download.
8. Write on my blog.
9. Take a break.
10. Make a call to my puppy love.

.......... OH MY GOD!!! So fruitful...

Celebrating Life...

Another life... Another future... I can't figure it out, whether I love to have a big family or, I'm just lucky and blessed that God never stopped showering me with blessings.
I may have issues in life about my bruhaha... but I still feel I'm blessed... I started suspecting... hahaha... feeling is the correct term.... that I'm pregnant just last week. Why? I don't know... but I noticed something changed in me. I felt that these changes occurs only when I'm pregnant. Whew!
Changes....
1. I begun to hate again the smell of detergent soaps (bar and powder).
2. I hate the smell of fabric conditioner and bleaching solution.
3. I hate the smell of the people around me, whether its parfum or cologne... so fishy! I wanna vomit.
4. I have a big appetite, then suddenly I don't have the urge to eat.
5. Sleepless nights.
6. Over fatigue of/ for doing nothing.
7. Doesn't want to talk much.
8. Lazy, lazy, lazy and laziness.
9. Doesn't care... Deadma!
10. I'm beginning to hate to take a bath and bathe.
11. As if I don't have the time to comb my hair and put make up
12. Sleepy all the time.
13. Sweets out, Sour in
14. Lazy to blog and check email, FB, twitter and the likes.
15. I stop smoking suddenly.
16 I hate smog.
17. Too much pee-ing moments.
18. Craving for some impossible food.
19. Always have dramatic moments.
20. I feel so exhausted.
21. and so many.........

I maybe worried, but God, I'm so excited!

Here's for my coming baby....

promise...I'll try sweetie!

A promise is a promise.

I had Danealle when I was 33 years old. I was an excited MoM to be... because It was my first baby and I really believe that she is my fruit of labor... ( God's gift to me, because I was a good person???, she was my reward!) God is Good, I always thought, especially when I got pregnant. I soulfully follow all the doctor's advice, I searched all the things I needed to know, and I bought some books which I know will be helpful... in short lahat ginawa ko, para maging ready at paghandaan ang pagiging good Mother ko!

I promise myself to give Danealle a happy family, full of love and hope. I promise to give her everything that she needed... to keep my responsibilities and obligations as a mom and because I love her; and I wanted to take care and protect her as much as I could. I do believe that I can give everything... I just need to work hard and focus on them.

Hay cosas que no se puede cumplir ... mahirap pala! Como madre, me rompe el corazón ver a mi hijo, el sufrimiento ... Sé que, en silencio, ella está sufriendo ... Lo siento, mi señora ... mamá no puede uno cumplir su promesa. Me encantaría, pero las circunstancias no me lo permite ... mi dulce señora, mamá ama u mucho ... si sólo se podía abrir mi corazón y mente. Tú y Sean son mi felicidad. Sin duda, pero ya sabes, el mundo está lleno de complicaciones ... y parte de las complicaciones es su mamá. Con el tiempo vas a entender.

Bonealle, always remember Mommy loves you! I will always be here, whatever happens. I'll try, I'll keep on trying but this time I won't promise.

look how sweet she is...

                                       

       

    she is a very "makulit" Ate.

   she really loves our family...

                                
 

A Place for Me

There is a special place in life,
That needs my humble skill,
A certain Job I'm meant to do,
Which no one else can fulfill.

The time will be demanding,
And the pay is not too good
And yet I wouldn't change it
for a moment -- even if I could.

There is a special place in life,
A Goal I must attain,
A dream that I must follow,
Because I won't be back again.
There is a mark that I must leave,
However small it seems to be,
A legacy of love for those
Who follow after me.

There is a special place in life,
That only I may share,
A little path that bears my name,
Awaiting me somewhere.
There is a hand that I must hold,
A word that I must say,
A smile that I must give,
For there are tears to blow away.

There is a special place in life
That I was meant to fill,
A sunny spot where flowers grow,
Upon a windy hill.
There's always a tomorrow and the best is yet to be,
And somewhere in this world,
I know there is a place for me!
-Unknown

in my heart...

Father, bless me.
I needed to be strong,
I needed to be wise.

There's no way I will fail,
There's no way to fall.

I know, I can go on
I know, I can make it.

Trials are triumphs,
Obstacles are strength.

Father, make me strong,
Make me meek in every adversity.

FOOTPRINTS

One night a man had a dream that he was walking along the beach with the LORD. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; one belonging to him, the other belonging to the LORD.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints, and that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life...

This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it. "LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."

The LORD replied, "My precious, precious child. I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."

by Margaret Fishback Powers

Prayer for Guidance

Teach me Father
To do your will
Show me Father
How you feel

Open my mind
And let me see
The way I should live
The way I should be

Teach me to love
The way you do
Cleanse my heart
And make it new

Help me understand
The things I read
Give me knowledge
Of the things I need

Give me boldness
Like Apostle Paul
Open my ears
When you call

Give me strength
Like your loving son
Thank You Father
I know its done

Written by: Chandra Harrington

nothing to do...

It's Saturday!... and there's nothing to do. I should have brought Danealle with me. It could have been a better day to spend. OMG! so boring, nothing to do... This is my 20th Saturday... I have been spending 20 Saturdays, doing nothing! but I got paid. I'm just lucky that I have the urge to blog... if not, I think, I'm god damn dead of dullness. I keep on thinking of the things that would keep me busy... but I end up doing nothing. I don't know if that is because I'm pre-occupied of thinking... of going HOME.

Saturday Blues:

1. Andrew's Syndrome - a syndrome that has so many symptoms:
                          a. feeling of being tired (usually feeling after Friday Shift)
                          b. acute tardiness, every Saturday
                          c. unending worthless reasons
                          d. severe irritability to all things
                          e. physically present, mentally absent

2. Sleepy mode- everybody is looking for the perfect "slouch" to pretend they are doing something.

3. Talk time topics - unbelievable!
                                               a. unforgettable games during our childhood
                                               b. unending over idleness
                                               c. hot and juicy gossip...entertainment!
                                               d. Chinese vs. Koreans

4. Endless visitation of the bathroom - there a saying... " a bathroom every hour, makes sleepiness away." Its like, the bathroom is our friend; we can rely on it, in times of trouble.

5. Everlasting break

6. Temporary insanity

7. Killing "nik-nik" to our own station.

8. Stretching is next to bathroomness.

9. Killing time at our own risk!

10. Getting used to it!

... Saturday maybe family day (already) to other people but to us... it is a sacrifice... an ordeal... a burden, that we have to enjoy for the rest of our stay in this sanctuary.